Burnt out...

When life feels overly overwhelming.

It's 08:25pm. Girl loves a time stamp.

I have heard the word ‘burn out’ a number of times but I didn't quite understand what it meant nor how it felt until last semester. It's a very crazy and unexplainable feeling if you ask me and the question you find yourself asking your pretty self is what is wrong with me? A question you'll most likely have no answer for.

You see these signs? Laughs in I see, I saw. I felt and experienced all of them. All.

Lost interest in everything; academics, books, movies, foods, friends, social media and even stepping out of the house. Me that could watch 2/3 movies in one sitting couldn't get past the first 15 mins of a movie. Watching short videos and skits became a chore and as much as I loved and love Zikoko’s My Body, God's Temple, I used two days to watch the 30 something minutes film.

Now, I have more books on my TBR including the ones I opened and closed after one chapter.

My classes? Don't bother asking. Because it felt like my lecturer's were speaking gibberish and textbooks were giving me headaches. Assignments back-to-back, various group assignments, each course having main character syndrome and the extra-curricular activities I committed to.

I realized a problem was in existence the night I wept after seeing another assignment on the class group chat.

P.S: Elective courses be doing the most.

Anyways, I cried and it wasn't even funny. It was my first serious tears this year and it was shocking because the only things that make me cry are books and movies/series.

Replying messages? Stress

Food nko? Mba

Then I was sick during exams.

To cut this whole story short, I recommend having a support system. It doesn't matter if it's just one person you talk to everyday, just make sure you have someone .

My friends. Honestly I'm grateful for the people in my corner because just them messaging me ‘how are you?’ did help in lifting my mood, even if it was for that moment. T mentioned that I was burnt out, this was when the problem finally had a name. She suggested I stay off social media and try things that come to me naturally which I did try but I had to come back to Obasanjo’s Internet for serious work.

I'm getting myself back, I might have added weight since I got to my mummy’s house, I'm currently reading my third book and I can't count the number of movies and shows I've watched.

Praise Master Jesus.

Till next time,

Vee✨